About a year after our daughter was born, I kept having the thought that our next kids would be twin boys. I didn’t say anything to Andy about that thought but one night out of the blue, he told me that he thought we were going to have twin boys.
About a year later, Andy and I did 2 rounds of IVF, I think mostly just because we didn’t want to leave anything on the table when it came to getting all of our kids down here. The second round we did, we transferred 2 solid embryos and I was sure that this was it. Our twins would finally make it to our family.
While we were waiting to find out if IVF worked and if I was pregnant or not, I had some really amazing moments where I would pray for the boys. I felt like God was showing me their life, their potential and all the amazing things they’d get to do here on earth. There was no doubt in my mind that I wasn’t pregnant.
When I found out that IVF hadn’t worked, I was devastated. I questioned my faith, my testimony and all of those prayers. I couldn’t understand why I had all of those special, spiritual moments about the boys when it wasn’t true. Despite how challenging that was, I never let go of the feeling that God had two boys that were meant to be in our family.
Earlier this week, I had a feeling that I needed to change something on our adoption website. I prayed to know what it was and then just a few minutes later, the thought came into my mind that I needed to write that we were looking for the twins. I wrote it all out and then asked Andy how he felt about it. He only paused for a couple of seconds before he told me that he also felt like that’s what we needed to do. He said that he prayed and knew two things for sure. One, that we needed to start the adoption process again right now and two, that we needed to write about the twins on our adoption website.
I think most people would say that we’re crazy for being so specific on our website. We’re basically asking for a mom expecting a girl or one boy to look right past our profile but we know that God has a plan for us and for this mamma and her boys. We know that when we turn our will over to God, he can make our lives into much more than we ever imagined for ourselves. We believe in prayer. We believe in being guided by the spirit in all things. We believe that this mom, her boys and us are meant to be in each other’s lives. We know it.